sheesh, i'm so tired that i could actually curl up under my desk a la george costanza & take a nice little, er, long nap. i have no idea what's making me so bone exhausted lately. i've been taking my vitamins, which kind of scares me to think how tired i'd be if i wasn't taking those to help me out. i should probably try to get into a doctor soon to get stuff figured out. i really do want to work out & actually lose weight, but i'm not sure how i'll accomplish that if i'm so tired all the time that i just want to nap for the majority of the day? do you think i'm at that phase of working out where you're super tired, like wanting to sleep for 100 years tired, but then if you push through it you become all energized like that bunny or like the road runner meep-meep? it could happen, right? yeah, & i'll win the power ball too. ugh! i'm just so frustrated right now! at the beginning of the year i was on track. i was working out regularly with jenn, watching what i ate, losing weight, doing well. then i hurt my right achielles & was banned from working out for eight weeks & i got all upset & my resolve went down the toilet like bad sushi. i know i know i know, i shouldn't use excuses, but i am anyway. it's so hard to get all of that motivation & excitement back once you've gone so far off track. it almost feels as if those couple months when i was eating well, exercising, & losing weight are a memory from another life, or flashes from a movie that i saw. not my actual recent past.
so once again i say, quit the whining & just get to working, right? i really want to do that. i have this picture in my head of how i feel, the way that i think my body should look. right now my physical reality is far far from that mental picture, but i think i can get there, i should be able to get there. It really should be a simple thing, it shouldn't be so complicated, so tough, so mentally exhausting to just eat less & move more. it's all a matter of calories in < calories out=weight loss. hehehe, a math equation. i am a math geek, i should love this, right? right? well, theoretically i should love this.
calling all friends, blog readers, lurkers, & etc:
*what is your favorite diet tip?
*how do you regain momentum/motivation?
*who is your diet/weight loss hero?
*how do i stop my mom from filling the house with sweets?
*how do i keep myself from eating them?
*what kind of rewards do you use for yourself?
*what do you think are the most effective exercises for weight loss?
please post any suggestions. i'll read & consider all comments. thanks much for your time & help : )